Happiness hit her like a bullet in the back of the head.

What happens when your world is turned upside down from your own choices?
one moment everything is on track and the plans are made
you think you know what you want out of life
and you think you are the one making things happen for yourself.

Some things are not controllable,
plans are impossible to make.
you may think you know where you will be in the future
but the truth is, none of us will ever be sure.

Each day is new, we all know that.
but as humans, letting go of the past and not wondering about the future is impossible
it is part of what makes us human, and part of what can easily eat away at us.
people say to always "live one day at a time, live in the moment"
but there can be consequences for that as well.

I will live my life without plans for the future,
aspirations yes, plans no.
I am not the kind to sit around and live life by the books.
I thrive on movement, and when things become to stable,
an earthquake is inevitable.

The gears in my brain won't stop turning,
sometimes I wish they would.
I love my past and am excited for my future.

A rush of happiness and the feeling of being content hit me all at once in the perfect moment.
in a moment when I thought I was already happy and content
life is full of surprises, and just when you think things are perfect,
and you are the best you can be,
something happens and everything changes.

I have been lucky before, but this was not by luck or chance.
It happened for a reason, it is meant to be.
for that I embrace what I have been given,
it is just what my nomadic soul needs.

I will say goodbye to my past life,
and move on towards the new.
sometimes it hurts to leave things you love behind,
people, traditions, feelings, and moments.

Movement, fluididty..
it is the only way a soul like mine will survive.